mid life crisis

i just tell my true stories to those i believe..
i just share my feelings n burden to whom i trust..

dulu my friend used to tell this " you know urself better ".
and now i should thank him for that words.. *sigh
i asked my really good friend abt this matter, she questioned me " why out of sudden u bring this up"
and now i should tell her : i dont find my heart here..done.

my dad said " not every things we love will bring us benefits, it can be futile "
my mom would just mumble this " nothing is easy in this whirl world "

yes, im having an internal conflict with my own self..
so to whom should i ask for advises n strength then ?

ALLAH : )

Allah is "closer to him (the human) than 

[his] jugular vein."

(50:16)

And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. 

I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. 

So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided.

(2:186)

note : btw semalam  kwan tahfiz punya ayh meninggal, tlg sedekahkan al fatihah utk die,jazakallah.

so u think im proud of that ? not at all

" You don't have to pretend to be strong, 

there's no need to prove all the time that everything is going well.. 

You shouldn't be concerned about what other people are thinking.. 

CRY if you need to, its good to cry out all your tears.. 

Because only then will you able to smile again.. "

Malaysia.. 

somehow the quote is related to what happened recently.
sedihlah dgn ap yg jd, serious xhappy lgsung.. mood off !
awak semua plan happily n ckp benda tu "cool gila".. tapi tahu x semua tu berdosa ? 
awak nak tarik sy masuk neraka sekali ea ?

btw ade satu versus dlm al-quran ckp camni,

"Berkata pulalah ia: "Maukah kamu meninjau (temanku itu)?"Maka ia meninjaunya, lalu dia melihat temannya itu di tengah-tengah neraka menyala-nyala.Ia berkata (pula): 

"Demi Allah, sesungguhnya kamu benar-benar hampir mencelakakanku, jikalau tidaklah karena ni'mat Tuhanku pastilah aku termasuk 

orang-orang yang diseret (ke neraka) "

(37:51-56)

saya xsuka orang create "love story" atas pdang golf sbb sy pergi sane untuk main golf.
org ckp "pokok xbergoyang kalau angin xtiup"..masalahnya xde angin tiup pun pokok bergoyang, camane ? 

conclusionnya, dont act like u know if u actually KNOW NOTHING : )

please..

ps: sorry kpd org tak berkenaan yg terpaksa baca " entry yg xberapa cerdik" ni..

      sorry jugak kpd yg terasa, mmg xberhikmah lgsg cara sy tgur ni, tp sy xpandai nk ckp 
      direct...maaf ~

-tulisan hariyani.