Sunday 29 April 2012

30.04.12

A busy month has ended,
after all the hectic schedule and wonderful holidays,
finally, 30th April 2012 comes.
few hours more to step in the KLIA,

Time to move out from the comfort zone is knocking the door,
its the time to be independent, be stronger, be more grateful to HIM.

Think positive hariyani,
tajdid niat, relax and keep praying to HIM.
Don't let the butterflies in your stomach ruin your dream and jihad.

Don't say "goodbye" but say " ilalliqa (semoga berjumpa lagi)",
Take care everyone.. Thank you for everything.
only Allah can repay your kindness.
i hope u can always pray for me cause i deadly need your doa.

Imam Bukhari menuturkan sebuah riwayat dari Abu Sa’id al-Khudriy, bahawasanya ia berkata:

“Rasulullah SAW ditanya, siapakah orang yang mulia (utama)? Beliau menjawab,
 “Seorang laki-laki yang berjihad di jalan Allah.” [HR Bukhari]

- salam jihad -








Monday 16 April 2012

traveller's diary - PERTH 2012


Perth ? Western Australia. Alhamdulillah it was wonderful. I just packed my clothes an hour before we went to the airport. Guess why? i got no mood cause mum was not in the pink of health, plus piles of words to be settled down.. i thought this was not a right time for holiday. but i was wrong.

Katakanlah: “Mengembaralah kamu di muka bumi, serta lihatlah Bagaimana Allah telah memulakan ciptaan makhluk-makhluk dari asal jadinya; kemudian Allah akan memulakan ciptaan itu semula (pada hari akhirat) Dalam bentuk kejadian Yang baharu.
Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Kuasa atas tiap-tiap sesuatu."
(Surah Al-’Ankabuut: 20)

As we stepped in the Perth Airport, i was wondering where was aunty arie..she is a gud friend of mama. There she was, Seeing them shaking hands n hugging each others reminded me to ila. If this was Brisbane, I'm sure she would be there waiting for my arrival. : ( it was 520 am, definitely its freaking cold for a skeleton girl like me.


We had a 5 star bfast at her luxury house,located at church lands. She operates a muslim restaurant here n she is absolutely super rich ! Her future son-in-law is Rusydi, a son of the former deputy gavernor of bank negara. After enjoying the meals, i joined my 2brothers to the lawn, watching them playing football.

There came the evil emotional feelings.. my mind kept reminding this " hariyani, 2more weeks to go, to enjoy ur days laughing and chatting with them".. i hate that silly thought ! While waitg for the guys for jumaat prayer, i sitted quietly in the van, thinking deeply about Islamic life there. In Australia, azan can't be delivered in an open air. There came this thought " Kat msia,azan jumaat dilaungkan tapi org xjugak pegi masjid, but muslims here berkejar nak dengar khutbah"...Mama, cousins n aunty tertdo sudah. The 5 hours flight was so tiring , i admitd it. Before pergi sana, aini n ila da pesan that " doa org musafir tu dimakbulkan Allah".. bear it in mind Hariyani. Thanks both.

Then Abg Firdaus n Hamka bawa kami ke city, they dropped us at the roadside, near the heart of Perth..thankx ! We went to harbour town which was not a stone throw from my hotel. It took 20 minutes for us to stroll along the wellington street. Hariyani spent 50 australian dollars ONLY for shopping. its about RM 150. Seriously i didn't believe that !!! Alhamdulillah,Vacation kali ni xrasa nak blnja macam org gila.. Membazir tu amaln syitan kan ? Before i leave the hotel, the white man asked me, why does wine haram ? even after we boil n remove the smell ? grapes contains vitamins..why wine is prohibited in Islam..? I can just said apa yg pernah ustzah zaleha ajar made syariah dulu " Haram kerana keburukannya lebh byk dr kebaikan, AL-HAMRU"..

After that kami wandered around the city. I passed through Curtin University. 
Mase jalan tu, tengok2 jugak kat depan University tu, saje jalan terhegeh2 depan tu, mane tawu ternampak Madhihah Manaf or Syafiq Afifi. Both are my friends. Suddnly nampak 3 org student malaysia. Mmg muka typical malay, I'm sure they are ISLAM. Guess what they wore ? Seriously sepanjang setahun setengah stay kat Shah Alm n ulang alik Kl, i didn't see any Muslim girl wearing that STUPID SHORT PANTS. I guess it was SHORTER than my brother's boxer. Dengan iPod nya, menyanyi with their heads following the melodies..Xtawu camane nak describe, Allah hai. I straight away told this to ayah " Kalau mel sambung medicine kat Perth nikan ayah, mmang runtuh agaknya iman ni tengok org Muslim which will actually be my community pakai pakaian mcm ni, life mereka mcmni..".. my brother said " Don't they feel shy ? ".. as a woman, i felt ashamed. Malu bila adik frm3 yang xmature cakap camtu. To me, u were sent there by ur parents or unfortunately the government to stdy well, kalau dgn pakaian mcm tu kamu pegi class, macamane kamu nak blajar dgn baik. Bukan dap at pahala jihad tp dapat dosa stiap saat. I felt sad sbb i didn't have the courage to approach them n tegur mereka that time. Iman ni memang masih lemah,i can just pray for them.

Hope kita xjadi mcm tu kawan2.. InsyaAllah. But i don't blame them for wearing that, maybe they don't know. i ASSUME mereka terlepas pandang.

" "Barangsiapa yang datang dengan (membawa) kebaikan, maka baginya (pahala) yang lebih baik daripada kebaikannya itu; dan barangsiapa yang datang dengan (membawa) kejahatan, maka tidaklah diberi pembalasan kepada orang-orang yang telah mengerjakan kejahatan itu, melainkan (seimbang) dengan apa yang dahulu mereka kerjakan"
(Al-Qashash 28:84)

"dan hendaklah kamu tetap di rumahmu dan janganlah kamu berhias dan bertingkahlaku (tabarruj) seperti orang-orang jahiliah dahulu".
(Al-Ahzab:33)

The next day tu kami ke Caversham Wildlife Park. Subhanallah Comelnya Koala n Kangaroo. Though it was not my first time holding them after a visit to Gold Coast, i still felt delighted to feed them. The most scenic scenery that i found there was a bush of rosemary. Selama ni beli perfume ja, i got the chances to pluck it there! i even experienced their fresh n natural smell. Hebatnya ciptaan Allah ni. "."


Tidakkah Engkau melihat Bahawa Allah menurunkan hujan dari langit, lalu Kami keluarkan Dengan air hujan itu buah-buahan Yang berlainan jenis dan rupanya; dan di antara gunung-ganang pula ada Yang mempunyai jalur-jalur serta lorong-lorong putih dan Merah, Yang berlainan warnanya (tua dan muda) dan ada juga Yang hitam legam, Dan demikian pula di antara manusia dan binatang-binatang Yang melata serta binatang-binatang ternak, ada Yang berlainan jenis dan warnanya? sebenarnya Yang menaruh bimbang dan takut (melanggar perintah) Allah dari kalangan hamba-hambaNya hanyalah orang-orang Yang berilmu. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Kuasa, lagi Maha Pengampun.
(surah Fathir: 27-28)

I went to the city again on sunday. Lagi sekali iman ni diuji. As i wrote earlier, i went to perth with my cousins. Tengok dorang beli skinny jeans, rasa nak beli jugak just because this evil mind told me that " u won't get this cheap price for Guess jeans in Msia".. seeee..bisikan jahatkan syaitan tu ? though they were hijab, tapi xsempurna..baju size XS, seluar size XXXXS..dulu kat UM, before Madheehah Syahidah pindah Al azhar, she used to said this to me when i asked abt someone n my question was " kenapa dia perangai mcmtu ea madhi? pelik sbb dia xtgal solat pun "... Madhi replied this " sebab dia solat di akhir waktu, Allah benci org yg melewatkan solat, kau bole rapat dgn die tp jgn ikut perangai die okay".. Alhamdulillah HE still guide me to the right path . I'm not pointing to anyone, tp that was our conversation.
again, I DONT BLAME THEM. cause i used to be like that, leka dgn dunia, love n branded attires. InsyaAllah HE will return them to the right path. Biiznillah.

Overall, a vacation in Perth was so benefitial. It was totally different from my other holidays which were full of pembaziran n fun semata2 without realizing that everything i do is ibadah..
the poor hariyani has realized more about her responsible as HIS khalifah. Let the past be past. Praise to Allah for this awesome Perth. It taught me a lot about my responsibility as a muslim to embrace islam everywhere in this whirlwolrd.
Allah, The Almighty "."






kenduri



Salam alaikum n hello everyone :)
as usual, before u further ur studies, people will cherish u..such a farewell but in Islam we call this kenduri. But the main purpose for this kenduri was to cherish my teachers n friends for their supports n doa. Alhamdulillah the kenduri run well,but some of my friends xdapat makan satay.. aaa I'm sorry for the inconvenience, unforgettful sorry to ammar ismail, amerul amer, iman baba, deqwa n huda, dila n those friends yg xsempat makan makann yg xseberape tu. sorry from the bottom of my heart. For yin, thanks you for lending me ur hands, u came earlier to ease the works. Lubna n aunty lily, thanks for the kuih..it was so nice n marvelous ! Thank you for coming everyone : )

I was so happy n delighted with your presence. My heart leapt sky high when i met all my teachers.. kindergarden, primary n secondary as well..
whatever i get, wherever i study, how great the success is.. high or low, its all from HIM. HE sends it through my parents n teachers, friends as well.. alhamdulillah, InsyaAllah jasa kalian akan dibalasNya.

" And swell not thy cheek (for pride) at men, nor walk in insolence through the earth for
Allah loveth not any arrogant boaster. "
"Dan janganlah engkau memalingkan mukamu (kerana memandang rendah) kepada manusia, dan janganlah engkau berjalan di bumi dengan berlagak sombong sesungguhnya Allah tidak suka kepada tiap-tiap orang yang sombong takbur, lagi membanggakan diri."
(surah luqman : 18)

The words thank you will never be enough. May Allah bless all of u.
I got those presents from them :


act ad banyak lagi gifts frm kamu semua, but let me keep is as my private possessions ok ?
i would like to share those messages that i received here ,

1) "salam, bila yani akan berangkat ke sana"- ckgu ahmad ( chemistry tutor)
2) " salam sorry hariyani, mlm td xsmpat dtg ade hal, apapun sy doakn awak bjaya dgn cmrlang, pandai2 bawa diri di tempat org" - ckgu azlan ( form 2,BM )
3) " salam sayang, maaf xdpt hadir, bila bertolak ke india? ckgu doakan kamu bjaya"
-ckgu zainah (form 1,PJ)
4) "kami sekeluarga akan doakan kamu"-ckgu md nor ( standard 4, BI)
5) "hariyani, ckgu beransur dulu, syukran sudi jmput cikgu & tahniah, tc always nanti"- teacher haslina,(form 5,discpline tcher)
6) "salam hariyani, di doakan selamat bljar ke india n tc di sana, semoga tercapai apa yg dicitakan.insyAllah balik dgn kjyaan"-ckgu md ismail ( form 1-GEOGRAFI)
7) "ckgu doakan kamu berjaya, jaga diri di sana nanty, tq ingat kat ckgu"
-ckgu tini ( form 2,GEOGRAFI)
8) " semoga brjaya dalam apa jua yg diceburi"- ckgu zubaidah ( standard 4, TAUHID)
9) " tq atas pghargaan dan jemputan, semoga pergi dgn ahrapn, pulg dgn kejaayaan"-ckgu ibrahim ( form 2,MATH)
10) " salam, xdpt dtg rumah hariyani. pkck kat penang,pkck doakan moga berjaya, amin"- pakcik mazlan ( a great bus driver)
11) "sy doakan yg terbaik utk awak, sy di SMK Bukit Baru utk pertandgan roket, teringat masa zaman awak wakil sekolah dulu "- ckgu shamliah (form 4, PHYSICS)
12) " ustzah doakn hariyani , jaga diri kat sane, bila2 blk msia, sggah ruma ustazah" -ustazah zaleha (form 5, SYARIAH)
13) " thnk u for the invitation, insyaallah all the bst"-teacher ain ( form 5, BI)
14) " awak jaga diri kat tempat org hariyani, bljar rajin2, awak mesti boleh, sy yakin" - ckgu suriani (form 4,5 - SEJARAH)
15) " tahniah"- ckgu n0rhayati ngosman (guru pengawas), teacher liza, ustaz nizam
(standard 1-math), ustaz kamil ( stndard 4-AKHLAK , SIRAH)
16) " jaga diri di negara orang, blajar rajin-rajin, sy tahu awak budak baik, plajar cemerlang, mesti boleh berjaya"- ckgu maryam ( form 5, guru class)
17 ) " insyaAllah, jaga diri disana, blajar rajin2"- ckgu nasir ( golf coach)
18 ) " bila doktor nak ke india? coach doakan awak berjaya, nanti rawat saye free of charge"
- ckgu syukor ( tennis coach)

Mesej dr kawan2 pun banyak sgt, till xsempat reply. sorry all.
Alhamdulillah.. thank you so much. Only Allah can repay everything that u have done for me.
Mom, dad, a huge thank you to both of u for all the sacrifaction "." semoga urusan ini dipermudahkan, biiznillah.

" wahai org2 beriman, mahukah kamu aku tunjukkan suatu perdagangan yg dpt menyelamatkan kamu dari azab akhirat? yiaitu kamu beriman kpd Allah dan rasulNya dan berjihad ke jln Allah dgn harta dan jiwamu. itulah yg lbh baik jika kamu mengetahui"
(surah as-saff: 10)





Sunday 8 April 2012

m.e.s.s


owh yea, everything turns upside down. Too many things to be settled down. i got a hectic schedule : ( I'm sorry if i couldn't intertain anyone in the mean time. hope u get it. sorry in advance.

12 - 17 april : away to perth
18 april : otordentic appointment for my braces
20 april : away to padang, indonesia
21, 22 april : visa application at indian embassy KL.
23 - 27 april : Medical school orientation at shah alam
28 april : opening ceremony for my mom's boutique at MITC
29 april : packing, weighing stuffs
30 april : i will be far from all of u.. depart to Bangalore INDIA at 10pm.

to those i have promised to hangout, I'm sorry i couldn't make it. i have to break the promises. :( There were 6 of u, yin , alifah, halim, abg azrin n kak khatty, vincent.. I'm so sorry. See u at the airport yea.


-sincerely, hariyani

Thursday 5 April 2012

MBBS

surat tawaran JPA

" Being born as a Muslim is a wonderful thing that I should appreciate,
because it eases my path in seeking HIM "

After all the interview, those offers
UNSW, IMU, MANIPAL,
InsyaAllah Medicine di International Medical School, India adalah yg terbaik untukku.
mungkin ada lebih banyak peluang untuk aku dekat kpdaNya.
Biiznillah.


5 April 2012,

Bilik Mesyuarat Utama, Kompleks Kerajaan Persekutuan,

Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam Malaysia.


"wahai hamba-hambaKu yang beriman! Sesungguhnya bumiKu adalah luas (untuk kamu bebas beribadat); oleh itu, (di mana sahaja kamu dapat berbuat demikian) maka hendaklah kamu ikhlaskan ibadat kamu kepadaKu."(29:56)

Alhamdulilah, HE chooses me for Medicine in IMS, India. Dalam beribu org yg applied, after all the hectic life during A Level n those ujian dariNya. Finally, Biiznillah i got the offer.
The other phase of my life will begin on 30th April 2012..

Nak ambil kesempatan ni to say thankx to my parents, Hj Mohd Zahari Hasan n Hjh Rohani Kambol for their doa yg xhenti2, masa yg diluangakn dan segala pengorbanan untuk anakmu ini. Tq too sebb tahan kerenah mel nak balik setiap minggu, provide me wth those duit tuition yg xterkira byknya di taylors. even dapat biasiswa pun, xcukup2 jugak. Hari2 sentiasa ceria utk jawab call mel,even bnda xpentg pun mel nak cerita, tq sbb dengar ! kalau nak listkan kat sini, mmg banyak sgt pengorbanan kalian. Alhamdulilah terima kasih mama, ayah. tanpa kalian, mel bukan sesiapa di dunia. Semoga Dia membalasmu dgn jannatu FIRDAUS.
tq to all lectures n friends.. fadilah, syakirin n alifah yg plg banyak bg support. housemates n class mates yg byk tolong si hariyani ni.hehe. tq all atas segala doa, support anda semua. InsyaALLAH kebaikan anda akan dibalas olehNYA.

Kul 6 pg da gerak dr rumah ke Putrajaya. Dengan blazer hitam, kemeja putih *gaya peguam. Stop dekat warung Bkt Katil, i met kawan ayah. he asked us nak pg mane haji ? ayah replied " nak hantar anak aku, ade taklimat".. pakcik tu tnya lagi " taklimat ape ji".. " taklimat utk ke India hujung bulan ni".. dusssh ! tetbe rase mcm kena panah, hey betulke aku nak pegi India ni ?
tengok muka ayah, rasa mcm xle survive tanpa die. teringat kat mam yg tgah busy dgn telkung kat rumah, kami sgt rapat, mcm baby girl la pulakkan.. xsmp sebulan lg nak blaa. ok abaikan perasaan ni, xnak start hari dgn air mata yg nta dtg dr mane.

Masa pre departure semalam, masuk2 je dapat envelope berisi surat tawaran Universiti n JPA. But ade technical error kat surat tawarn, it stated tht the duration of stdy in India will be from APRIL 2012 - APRIL 2018. 6 yearss man ! semua org da start pndg each other, tergamam. suddently soalan ni knocked off my mind " kenapa aku pilih utk bljar di luar negara? seriuos aku bole survive ?" , then ade short briefg dgn Ketua Unit Modal Insan JPA, Encik Othman. lebih kurg mcm nila speech die :

" Tahniah semua, saya bangga dgn prestasi anda utk CIE exam yg lepas, ramai yg peroleh 15 points, result yg terlalu cemerlang. Kamu semua ialah last betch yg akan kami hantar ke luar negara utk medicine, bersyukurlah kerana kamu semua insan yg terpilih, bertuah. Kehidupan di India,berbeza sekali dgn Msia. India will always be India, semua fahamkan. Dont demand, kerana kami hantar awak ke sana utk timba berapa byk ilmu. Diarrhea perkara biasa utk few weeks yg pertama. Sebagai penaja, sy nak ingatkan supaya kamu gunakan kesempatan ni dan hargai duit rakyat yg anda guna, saya harap awak semua akan pulang sebagai doktor yg akan menyumbang kpd negara. Jangan xbalik pulak".

i sat the the front row, sebelah Dinie n Nurlin. so mmg jelasla dengar ape yg Encik Othman n Tengku Farah ckp. Bila tengok semua org pakai blazer hitam, rasa cuak tu datang mengetuk hati ni. Are you serious Hariyani ? sebelum ni xpenah rasa doubt untuk fly pun.. tapi kenapa arini xsedap hati ? bisikan syaitan ke ni? mereka nak halang urusan jihadku fillah ke?
mcm2 soalan n keraguan timbul kat kepala ni. Allah je yg tahu perasaan yg berbolak balik ni.

"يامقلب القلوب ثبت قلبي على دينك "
"wahai tuhan yg membolak-balikkan hati ini, teguhkan hatiku atas agamaMu."

Bila sampai rumah semlm, otak mmg celaru. Visa kena buat sndiri sbb next week nak g Australia, then nak renew passport sbb blank pages utk dicop da tgal sikit. aaaaaa..ok skrg baru rasa mcm2 nak kene settlekan. next week xde kat sini,matila, bila aku nak buat sume ni..Xde sikit pun perasaan happy dapat duit yg beribu2 tu,dengan cash money nya n travellers ceknya.. bila ayah tanya apa lg yg xde, i just kept quiet.
i just said, xsmp sebulan je yah nak fly. nanti mel rindu ayah dgn mama.
My flight will be on the 30th April, 10 malam..cepatnya masa berlalu, rasa mcm baru hbs SPM.

By hook or by crook, i have to be strong. No turning back Hariyani. Hati aku berkata2,
"Kau buat kerana ALLAH kan? kenapa nak sdh? lemah sgt ke iman kau hanya dgn bisikan syaitan yg sesimple tu kau tunduk? mane smgat kau utk truskan jihad ni?

*teringat kakak usrah cakap, once msuk medical school, kene usaha betul2 utk dekatkan diri pada DIA. Doa tu kunci awak. Life yg hectic as a medcal stdnt akan buka ruang2 untul si syaitan alter aqidah awak. lagi2 dekat India ni, ni xkene, itu xkene..jadikan diarrhea yg bakal awak lalui sebagai alternatif utk awak sentiase mengingati DIA.
Tajdid niat, bljr kerana Allah. BUKAN kerana org bljar, awak kena bljjar.

will it be that hard ? Allahuakbar. tapi ila nampak cam ok je, dia pun rapat dgn family die, kalau die ok je kat AUSTRALIA, aq pun sure ok kan kat INIDA. aaaaaaa..bukan xbole balik msia, tp adeke mase yg banyak utk aku balik slalu?
seriosly mcm xde mud arini. nta dr mane perasaan sayu ni dtg. sume org aku nak fikir, semua benda aku nak tulis..semua gambar aku nak copy dlm pendrve. ape ni hariyani ?

“Allah menghapuskan apa jua yang dikehendakiNya dan Ia juga menetapkan apa jua yang dikehendakinya. Dan (ingatlah) pada sisiNya ada 'Ibu segala suratan'.”
[13:39]

“Karena sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan. Sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan."
[94:5-6]]

aku sendiri xtau apa yg sedang aku lalui, perasaan apakah ini. sedih ke happy ke ?
im totally speechless.
counting days, i start to feel sad n become emotional. tolong jangan bawa air mata anda ke rumah sya for kenduri esok, n lebih penting is tolong simpan air mata anda ketika di KLIA.


" please keep me strong ya rabb,
kurniakanlah aku dgn sifat ikhlasmu,
please ease me ya allah,
i love my parents n i will miss them, tabahkan hati ni,
jihad fi sabilillah "