Sunday, 6 May 2012

HE is answering me

Why India ?
“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, 
Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”
  (surah al baqarah : 216)

On the second day of staying in Bangalore, we went to the Foreign Regional Offoce to register our residential permit. It was quite far from our campus, about 45minutes drive.  
Too many problems had to be faced as the officers were so annoying. They asked for unnecessary documents. Again, hatred filled the air. Everyone couldnt stop from complaining about the system there as we had to wait for more than 6 hours in the stuffy office.
Women are not allowed to enter any mosques in India. That’s their tradition. Guess what, there was no mosque at that area.

praying on the roof top under the glittering sun
We prayed at the roof top of an indian house. The sunshine stroke our face as the red sun was just above our head. Not all of  of us brought along our telekung. Praise to HIM for dressing me with a full covered cloth. There came a thought saying “ sebab tu la Allah suruh tutup aurat sentiasa, so that u can pray everywhere on earth”… Few minutes after we climbed on the stairs to reach the top, 2 indian men with six pads and fierce face came to me as my friends were paraying there. “ who allow u to do this here”.. “ why do u do this”.. he threw the questions  with loud n harsh voice. My heart stop from beating normally. It was such an abuse for a small kid like me.

I cried silently, started to think this “ why I choose India not Malaysia or even Australia?”.. it was super hard for me to pray under the hot sun with dusty air.. there was no halal restaurant near the F.R.O office. It was 8pm at night. I didn’t eat since my last meal at kak akma’s house last night.  I was starving badly in the old, suck bus. It took us 2 hours to reach the apartment due to the heavy jam. We had to come back on the next day AGAIN “.”

"Dan kami pasti akan menguji kamu dengan sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa, dan buah buahan. Dan sampaikanlah 
khabar gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar"

(surah al baqarah: 155)

“Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan).”

(Surah Al-Imran: 200)

Why India Hariyani ?
I got the answer form the sisters that night during our taaruf gathering.

“ Im sure some of u keep questioning HIM why HE sends u to India? Same thing happened to us during our first few days here as many of us were actually bound to Ireland n UK. “.. 
“Sabar adik-adik, Allah hantar kita ke sini sebab DIA tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita. “

“Tertundanya pemberian setelah engkau mengulang-ulang permintaan, janganlah kerana secebis doamu yang lewat diperkenankan engkau berpatah harapan. Allah menjamin pengabulan Doa sesuai dengan apa yang DIA pilih buatmu, bukan menurut apa yang engkau pilih sendiri, dan pada saat yang DIA kehendaki, bukan pada saat yang engkau ingini”.. –AL HIKAM, Ibnu A’thaillah As-Sakandari.

After all, alhamdulillah I was sent to India. It makes me become more grateful to HIM. Tengok orang miskin n homeless make me realise how lucky I am to have a super nice house provided by my parents.. how hard they work to ease my days n how beautiful my hometown is. 
Tengok orang solat tepi jalan makes me feel that bumi Allah ni luas sgt, mana2 pun boleh solat n we have to always prepare for the worse.
Having kakak2 usrah yang sgt baik eases my pain n lighten my burdens here. Yang bengkok dalam diri ni, mereka usaha untuk luruskan. They are the reasons why im still standing strong here, in this bumi rempah.

Stop complaining Hariyani. Bear in mind the reasons u choose India. Hold ur responsibility as a muslimah student here. Strive hard n don’t ever stop from seeking HIS redha.

Thinking about home n Malaysia, I just want to say loudly :
I MISS ALL OF U, my rabbits and my comfy pillow.


  1. being able to withstand and standing strong kat sana, awak memang buat saya bangga :)

    and please, keep making all of us proud, and keep believing, that ALLAH is watching our steps . sayang mel !

  2. tq sayang :) i wana be strong like u, to embrace islam like what u do there. insyaallah.
    tc dear. yup he is watching me, he is always there to test our iman. tq fpr remndg dear.luvufillah.